Aimless Contemplations

Brief musings from the last few weeks:
1. Vivian, based on these early week observations, you remain calm, content and observant. You love to be held and will even let me sit still with you on occasion. I hurry to get "everything" done in the mornings so that I can enjoy a moment of afternoon "nothingness" with you. I live for the winks of time where all we can do is nothing together. I wish there was more time for nothing. You make me want to hit the pause button; something I didn't think I was capable of wanting.
2. Ella heartily embraces the role as big sister. She fetches bottles, blankets and burp cloths. She soothes tears by assailing her sister with sloppy kisses on the mouth (thank God we haven't entered flu season). She reassures her with gregarious chants of "Don't cry baby, I'm right here, o.k.?". She has even found new uses for the breast pump (picture to be posted soon). Way to go kiddo!
3. Biggest regret from the last few weeks: Trying on pre-baby jeans two weeks postpartum. It was a good day gone bad. I must have had some semblance of confidence in my body to even make the attempt. Ego was crushed within minutes. Convinced that Jerry must have tumble dried my jeans on high, high heat earlier that day. Mental note: Next attempt must not be so aggressive...is May, 2012 too premature? Need to go out and purchase more slouchy yoga pants as I already consigned all of my maternity wear.
4. Best high from the last few weeks: Running into Jerry's bike with the car...on purpose. Shazam. Technically, I just tapped it so it would fall over. Wrong, I know...but it felt so good. His transgression? Fell through on a promise to finish the dishes from the night before. Lesson learned.