Unfiltered

I love that Ella is free of inhibition; her Id decidedly in the driver's seat. She hugs without hesitation, she dances with gusto, she attacks her food with dirty, sticky fingers. She'll shriek with joy in quiet libraries, she'll pull at her mother's hair to indicate that she doesn't want to be put down. No concern about appearances or expectations and it is incredibly refreshing to witness. I wonder when the outside world will start having greater influence on her actions; when that Super Ego will grab the wheel. I hope to help support her as she explores that delicate balance between being thoughtful and conscientious while still voicing her opinions and embracing her square peg qualities. It took years for me to find that balance and if truth be told, I'm still searching. I can tell you that my thirties has brought me closer. Perhaps it's age, perhaps it's motherhood.
Ella, I promise to stick by you as you figure it all out. If only it was something I could pass on, like curly hair or blue eyes. If only it was that easy. In the mean time, hold on to the unfiltered Ella as long as possible. I love seeing that light shine in your eyes. There's plenty of time for appearances later...much later.